Numerous times, I have started to write journals but can never seem to remember to continue writing in it. I decided since the means to be able to constantly write into this journal that I would start one, again. I have a lot on my mind these days and events that occurred which I do not wish to forget.
My online endeavors have led me to meet someone. I met Eileen at the 61st Woodside train station. We set off for the city and she showed me around. I felt sort of embarrassed because I should know a bit more about my own city. I thought she was a conservative girl as my first impression. She has a touch of the 'skater' style.
We kept walking until it was past midnight. I certainly received my exercise for the day!
We saw each other time after time since then. We talked extensively online through various instant messengers. I stayed in her room one night and slept on the floor. She woke me up and told me to sleep next to her.
We saw movies at the theater. We went bowling. We talked at Flamingo's a couple of hours past midnight. We drove to the Brooklyn Bridge in the middle of night.
Despite all of the aforementioned, I didn't think that she liked me. I cannot read any sort of emotion from her that would suggest that she likes me. The fault still lies in me, though. I should have known that any girl that would be willing to go on a drive in the middle of night for absolutely no reason is not something a person would do for just anybody.
Things get more complicated, things that are not worth mentioning. It doesn't matter anymore. The only words that stuck with me from her were: "I don't want you liking me, anymore." She also stated that I give off bad vibes. I was a little hurt immediately upon hearing this but I realized that I shouldn't dwell on this matter for too long.
Life's too short is what they always say.
So what did I learn from this?
Fate has taken its course since day one.
I reacted to outside pressure and in turn, lost everything.
This is how the story ends.